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After too many resumes to count and nearly a dozen interviews I am officially exhausted. I am ready for the RIGHT offer. Two interviews in one day was a bit much, and now I am heading off to Newport. This is where I took the picture of this gravestone and the castle like home almost 3 months ago when we were there for our 20th wedding anniversary. Seems like a lifetime ago. It is supposed to rain for the whole time and we will make the most of it and have fun anyway!!! Can't wait to see the girls. It has been two years since we have been away. We deserve a little fun and R and R. We have not all been together since the 50th bday celebrations last April! I honestly believe all things will fall into place soon. They must. Our future depends on it. Good things come to those who wait....................................
First day of fall..........moving on to a new season. Before we know it, it will be winter and we will be waiting for our first snow fall. What a crazy weekend herein our little "hood
". So sad when neighbors are complaining about the joyful too loud sound of little girls laughter. I'm afraid it has started a beef that is big and one that that there will be no return from. We sandwich this neighbor with small giggly happy girls who are mostly respectful and good kids and who are innocent and often have to be protected from these grumpy unhappily neighbors who have many frequent four lettered word fights with said wife and illegal substances being smoked right in their yard. Having never complained in the nearly 3 years we have been here...Oh well...Bring it on now! I will make the most of this Fall and continue my search for work and Dog!!! My second interview is Friday with a company right down the road...good benefits,bonuses, perks etc.... say a little prayer for me.
Motherhood is not all it is cracked up to be lately. Struggling to find work and feel I am not really doing right by my poor "Middle Child". He and I have been doing this dance for a dozen years or more, and it is getting weary. Tonight a full moon comes up over the bog. Here he is now after I thought he might not come back home tonight, so relieved am I. Already he is here to harass and hate me just another day in the life... an ungrateful mother. This is not a job for the faint of heart. I can not wait until he is 18!!!!! Two years and I pray each and every day that this will be the day he realizes his potential and how much we have always loved him! I can not make him see or believe it, that will be his challenge. For now I must have FAITH that God will carry us through it.
I am certain in his heart of hearts he knows we all love him dearly. There has been no meds in months now and it is not working out, time to try yet another pill. Poor boy. The depression is so genetic and part of both of our families history. It is better to have tried to come off and seen it is not time than to have always wondered if we had over medicated him as a boy. We have been around the world seeking professional medical and psychiatric advice for this poor kid. We have been to Children's Hospital, Mass General....had blood drawn from the whole family...been tested intellectually, physically, mentally, and now we are exhausted and nearly broken. The husband has been having chest pains for months. Please LORD DO NOT let the stress of this kill him. I will not live like his Mother and mine...young and bitter widows. I will get him the help he needs and get him back on the road to happiness no matter what!!!! I am determined. Let there be peace .
A gorgeous day on Newbury Street off for a walk in search of a key chain/bottle opener for Matt's new dorm room key. Great afternoon spent exploring the city on Labor Day. Now he has been gone almost two weeks and we are settling in without him here. He is so much happier this year.
His classes are great, his girlfriend has an apartment and life is good. Went back a few days ago to have lunch with his godmother...my best friend and her youngest daughter who is now a freshman at Suffolk University as well. Who could have ever guessed all those years ago when they were babies together, that they would end up at the same college. We had a great meal together at Joe's American Bar and Grill....checked out the new art gallery our friend's the Quidley's who have just opened a second gallery on Newbury Street as well and just wandered through the Public Gardens a bit. Took a photo of the two kids with each of the Moms and counted our blessings. For now they both are happy where they are...AMEN!!!
Looking back at this picture of our adored black lab makes us all so sad. She died a few months back and we are still devastated she died much too young and suddenly. It is time to heal and now we are eagerly looking to adopt a new girl! We are not the same as a family without a pooch to love. We are looking for a yellow lab female about a year or so old to love and hike with. We love to swim and walk the beaches here on Cape Cod and there is nothing better than doing it with your pup!~If anyone is too overwhelmed by their lab's energy level or has young kids and can not keep up...please post a comment and I will respond. We are ready to rescue or rehome our next forever canine daughter. We planted a "Dogwood" tree in her memory and we are often out back just thinking our thoughts and recalling the hundreds of hikes, swims, beach walks, and places we explored with her. She will always be our first girl but now we are ready to love a new dog and give one a new home to love.
Back to Beautiful Newport Rhode Island with part of the Supremes. 7 out of 12of us is not too bad. Despite the horrible weather we had fun in a beautiful beach house and lots of laughs too. Yesterday everyone else had to head back to Stoneham and I spent the whole day window shopping, taking the Cliff Walk, exploring the Harbor and taking a ton of photos. Discovered a beautiful campus called the St George School and peeked in a old church that was just breathtaking. I loved the alone time. Finally and I think worth the wait I am proud to announce that I am officially employed again and will begin work a week from today!!! I am psyched to be back in sales and my territory is right here on Cape Cod. I applied for another dog today too, so who knows. Has the tide really turned for us. This is my last week off for a while and boy do I have a long list of to do's.
